some things just happens.
i am sorry dhat i lose control over some things. but.. do you know how long have i been holding it and not telling anyone?
some ppl have others to care abt them, but i dont have. i mean as in cause i didnt let anyone noe. but.. argh. nevbermiinds.
how long have i been holding back on how i feel and how sad i am? does anyone know? i can tell you e answer is no. i didnt even tell anyone. i keep mian qiang zi ji to slove it, face it by myself and keep it as it is. i am really sorry dhat i lose control kays. do you know just now i nearly cried? how i feel when all e feelings just come. how does it feels being miee when i did nothing?

i simply dono why i am typing all these laas. just feel so useless being miee. i can be happy this moment, but whenever anything happens, i can be sure dhat i am not e happy eLAINE. give miee time, to think and cool down my feelings. i really dont mean anything harmful. and really really wish i know. sometimes i wish i know what i do to deserve dhat? does you know? i can say dhat whatever you knows its not e entire. i really think so. but just hack care miee.

i apologise agains for miee losing control and throwing tantrums at you. i really dont mean it and feel guilty. ):
but as i promise you before, i dont hais le. see e entire post, no hais. (:
i really really treasure us being bro&sis. (: and hope it will last and dont let anything stand between this. ((: time is given.

** just dont care abt this post and dont tag on it. this is just miee venting my mood and only for one person to understands. (: hack care this.
feeling so useless.